7 Years

And so.... I am coming up to almost 7 years since my father passed away... and where am I?

I push ahead at times boldly, confidently.  Then fall back unsure, unsettled, afraid of failure.  Was this where I was before my father died?  Truthfully.... no.

I am deeper now... scarred.  Again... my emotions are close to the surface.  Sometimes that is good... sometimes it is scares me.

One characteristic has emerged that I didn't have before though.  I am driven now.  I was cautious.... trending to security rather than daring.

I am driven and more daring.

That is where I am now... almost 7 years later.